I need to make a label here for him, Because my posts about him are increasing in a way I didn't expect myself ! and I'm labeling the older posts too. These posts about him seem to be continuing for some more time, I'm still digging and discovering and every thing I find makes me want more, and probably makes me want to write more even if I didn't actually write, for what ever reason.
I even can't work with concentration, I sneak into the web browser and search for the books by him or about him and read what I can. Unfortunately I can't find these books in hard copies and so I have to search for soft copies online. Which is also hard to find easily.
I've been thinking while I'm searching and reading and watching and listening, why do I do this in this fierce rate?. I have a reason or two that I'll keep to my self, But I think one of the important reasons is that I like mystery and so I try to solve, or imagine to have solved, what is to me is identified as a puzzle, This man.
Second, what he says; most of it is again, as I said before, resonating inside my head and inside my heart in a way that frightened me once or twice :(. I think that's why I' am always feeling the urge to cry when thinking of a something he wrote or said.
Thoughts about and by Bogarde
The Bogarde Mystique
The one that I need to copy and put in here is this one :)
"Isolation, even from choice as in my case, incubates self-centredness like a culture...Living in a tower, however secure it may feel, is hardly a social attribute...It was said of me recently that I suffered from an Obsessional Privacy. I can only suppose it must be true." (from A Postillion Struck by Lightening by Dirk Bogarde).
There are very few people that If it was possible I would have loved to be near them in their life at any era since dawn of history, two of them are Egyptian men lived the peak of their lives in the first half of 20th century, the third man ever that I wished to live near is Dirk.
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