"Why haven't you posted for so long Rouge Wandrer ? I just hope you are okay "
I just noticed today that we are in the beginning of a new year, so I logged on today on my blogger account, for the first time in Soooo long that I feared I might have forgotten the password :). Only to find this above comment by Amira Elgohary waiting for me. Frankly I was surprised that I still have a reader in this cyber space :D and surly I can easily say that I was moved for someone asking about my posts.
First thank you Amira, and second , Happy New Year to you and to whoever is still passing by this blog, My blog :).
Well, I don't know how to explain my absence, basically because I believe I kind of lost the ability to express what feel or think !! that same ability to express was sharpened a few years ago through this blog and I was a much better person at expressing my self back then, any way I'll try and bear with me for my random thoughts.
sometimes I feel it's so crowded in my mind that it's hard to grab one continuous thought and express it on a post. and some times I feel totally the opposite, that is having noting at all in my mind or soul that needs or worth mentioning here !
plus, I know that I lost interest in a lot of things that were my passion or meant a lot to me in the past, and I just HOPE I'll get back to where I left and that's just a temporary state. these things , my passions, were the material for a lot of posts here .
also, some times I feel that this life is worthless and that there is no point of a lot of things in it,
and being a person who mostly don't like to give people negative energy thoughts, I shut up in those times.
also, I became really fat and that makes me really angry and sad too.
I might seem like i'm depressed or something, which might be true by the way, but even if I am , it would be to the least extent , I just believe or Hope that it's just a mid-life crisis situation :D !.
Anyway, I feel That I'm willing to concentrate again on this blog in this new year, ISA. :)
P.S. writing this I remembered one thing I love about this blog, I can say what ever I want to say without any fear of being misunderstood :)
2 comments:
hey actually I am so grateful for this post , I didn't know u will show up and that was enough , I still come here from time to time and I was kind of disappointed that there was nothing new except for this was post from Jan , I am still waitin for you to put urself together and get back .
Well Amira , thanks a lot for being so patient about me and this blog :) I've not been very focused regarding checking on comments , so I missed this comment of yours for more than eight months, Jut read it and thank you so much for your nice comment. I hope you like my newest post, the first in 2017.
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