Love ,lost or found

The heart has its reasons which reason knows not of.

Blaise Pascal

Love takes up where knowledge leaves off.

Saint Thomas Aquinas

Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love.

Jane Austen

Love is the beauty of the soul.

Saint Augustine

When love is not madness, it is not love.

Pedro Calderon de la Barca

What law, what reason can deny that gift so sweet, so natural that God has given a stream, a fish, a beast, a bird?

Pedro Calderon de la Barca

The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed.

Carl Jung

These flowers, which were splendid and sprightly, waking in the dawn of the morning, in the evening will be a pitiful frivolity, sleeping in the cold night's arms.

Pedro Calderon de la Barca

A loving heart is the beginning of all knowledge.

Thomas Carlyle

Sympathy constitutes friendship; but in love there is a sort of antipathy, or opposing passion. Each strives to be the other, and both together make up one whole.

Samuel Taylor Coleridge

Footfalls echo in the memory, down the passage which we did not take, towards the door we never opened Into the rose-garden.

T. S. Eliot

At the touch of love everyone becomes a poet.

Plato

First love is only a little foolishness and a lot of curiosity.

George Bernard Shaw

Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings.

Anais Nin

That Love is all there is,
Is all we know of Love.

Emily Dickinson

قهوتى السوداء

صاحبتى قالت لى أقرأ لك الفنجان . أول مرة أعرف إنها تعرف تقرأ الفنجان... ...على خفيف . طبعا الله اعلم . هي قالت 5 معلومات .الأولى صحيحة لانها حالية ولازالت سارية . الباقى بقى ...................... ربنا يستر

Hope of deliverance, Paul McCartney

I will always be hoping, hoping.
You will always be holding, holding
My heart in your hand. I will understand.

I will understand someday, one day.
You will understand always,
Always from now until then.

When it will be right, I don't know.
What it will be like, I don't know.
We live in hope of deliverance from the darkness that surrounds us.

Hope of deliverance, hope of deliverance.
Hope of deliverance from the darkness that surrounds us.

And I wouldn't mind knowing, knowing
That you wouldn't mind going, going along with my plan.

When it will be right, I dont know.
What it will be like, I dont know.
We live in hope of deliverance from the darkness that surrounds us.

Hope of deliverance, hope of deliverance.
Hope of deliverance from the darkness that surrounds us.

Hope of deliverance, hope of deliverance.
Hope of deliverance from the darkness that surrounds us.

Hope of deliverance, hope of deliverance.
Hope of deliverance from the darkness that surrounds us.

Hope of deliverance, hope of deliverance.
Hope of deliverance from the darkness that surrounds us.

Harvey , 1950

Well, this is the first of two special movies i've watched when i was really young, about 8-9 years old but no more. I can see me back then sitting in bed in the dark and watching it late in a cold night, alone. It is special because back then i didn't know a word in english except, yes , no and good morning i suppose. And certainly i didn't know much about ameriacan actors or movies. All i'm sure i was good at was reading the arabic subtitles fast enough to understand what's happening. And so i liked this movie very much, i think i thought it was very funny back then, and i never really forgot it, the face of James Stewart was printed in my head. So when i grew up a little i recognized him immediatly. He is one of my favorite american actors of all time. But i had to wait for more than 20 years to see Harvey again , a week ago , and it wasn't just this funny movie from my childhood. Some how it made me think of a lot of things, some parts of the dialogue are more than brilliant that -when delivered by Jimmy- it hurts. Anyway, if Elwood P. Dowd ; Jimmy Stewart's character was a drunk in this movie, then we all need to get drunk a little.
The second movie was a totally different genre, The Old Man and the Sea starring Spencer Tracy !!

My favorite quotes ,

Elwood P. Dowd: I'd just put Ed Hickey into a taxi. Ed had been mixing his rye with his gin, and I just felt that he needed conveying. Well, anyway, I was walking down along the street and I heard this voice saying, "Good evening, Mr. Dowd." Well, I turned around and here was this big six-foot rabbit leaning up against a lamp-post. Well, I thought nothing of that because when you've lived in a town as long as I've lived in this one, you get used to the fact that everybody knows your name. And naturally I went over to chat with him. And he said to me... he said, "Ed Hickey was a little spiffed this evening, or could I be mistaken?" Well, of course, he was not mistaken. I think the world and all of Ed, but he was spiffed. Well, we talked like that for awhile and then I said to him, I said, "You have the advantage on me. You know my name and I don't know yours." And, and right back at me he said, "What name do you like?" Well, I didn't even have to think twice about that. Harvey's always been my favorite name. So I said to him, I said, "Harvey." And, uh, this is the interesting thing about the whole thing: He said, "What a coincidence. My name happens to be Harvey."

Wilson: Who's Harvey?
Miss Kelly: A white rabbit, six feet tall.
Wilson: Six feet?
Elwood P. Dowd: Six feet three and a half inches. Now let's stick to the facts.

Dr. Sanderson: Think carefully, Dowd. Didn't you know somebody, sometime, someplace by the name of Harvey? Didn't you ever know anybody by that name?
Elwood P. Dowd: No, no, not one, Doctor. Maybe that's why I always had such hopes for it.

Elwood P. Dowd: I always have a wonderful time, wherever I am, whomever I'm with.

Elwood P. Dowd: Years ago my mother used to say to me, she'd say, "In this world, Elwood, you must be" - she always called me Elwood - "In this world, Elwood, you must be oh so smart or oh so pleasant." Well, for years I was smart. I recommend pleasant. You may quote me.

Veta Louise Simmons: Myrtle Mae, you have a lot to learn, and I hope you never learn it.

Elwood P. Dowd: Harvey and I sit in the bars... have a drink or two... play the juke box. And soon the faces of all the other people they turn toward mine and they smile. And they're saying, "We don't know your name, mister, but you're a very nice fella." Harvey and I warm ourselves in all these golden moments. We've entered as strangers - soon we have friends. And they come over... and they sit with us... and they drink with us... and they talk to us. They tell about the big terrible things they've done and the big wonderful things they'll do. Their hopes, and their regrets, and their loves, and their hates. All very large, because nobody ever brings anything small into a bar. And then I introduce them to Harvey... and he's bigger and grander than anything they offer me. And when they leave, they leave impressed. The same people seldom come back; but that's envy, my dear. There's a little bit of envy in the best of us.

The Taxi Driver: ...I've been driving this route for 15 years. I've brought 'em out here to get that stuff, and I've drove 'em home after they had it. It changes them... On the way out here, they sit back and enjoy the ride. They talk to me; sometimes we stop and watch the sunsets, and look at the birds flyin'. Sometimes we stop and watch the birds when there ain't no birds. And look at the sunsets when its raining. We have a swell time. And I always get a big tip. But afterwards, oh oh... They crab, crab, crab. They yell at me. Watch the lights. Watch the brakes, Watch the intersections. They scream at me to hurry. They got no faith in me, or my buggy. Yet, it's the same cab, the same driver. and we're going back over the very same road. It's no fun. And no tips... After this he'll be a perfectly normal human being. And you know what stinkers they are!

Mrs. Ethel Chauvenet: Does Elwood see anybody these days?
Veta Louise Simmons: Oh, yes, Aunt Ethel, Elwood sees *somebody*.

Elwood P. Dowd: You see, science has overcome time and space. Well, Harvey has overcome not only time and space, but any objections.
Dr. Chumley: Fly specks, fly specks! I've been spending my life among fly specks while miracles have been leaning on lampposts at 18th and Fairfax!

Dr. Chumley: This sister of yours is at the bottom of a conspiracy against you. She's trying to persuade me to lock you up. Today, she had commitment papers drawn up. She has your power of attorney and the key to your safety box, and she brought you here!
Elwood P. Dowd: My sister did all that in one afternoon. That Veta certainly is a whirlwind, isn't she?

Elwood P. Dowd: That's envy my dear, there's a little bit of envy in the best of us.

[last lines]
Elwood P. Dowd: Well, thank you Harvey! I prefer you too.

Mailman: Beautiful day...
Elwood P. Dowd: Oh, every day is a beautiful day.

Dr. Sanderson: I think that your sister's condition stems from trauma.
Elwood P. Dowd: From what?
Dr. Sanderson: Uh, trauma. Spelled t-r-a-u-m-a. It means shock. There's nothing unusual about it. There's the "birth trauma" - the shock of being born...
Elwood P. Dowd: That's the one we never get over.

Elwood P. Dowd: [talking about Harvey] Did I tell you he could stop clocks?
Dr. Chumley: To what purpose.
Elwood P. Dowd: Well, you've heard the expression; 'his face would stop a clock'.
Dr. Chumley: Mm-hmm.
Elwood P. Dowd: Well, Harvey can look at your clock... and stop it. And you can go anywhere you like, with anyone you like, and stay as long as you like, and when you get back... not one minute will have ticked by.

Elwood P. Dowd: Miss Kelly, you make this flower look beautiful.

اسكتوا بأه

أرجوك‏:‏ توقف عن لوم نفسك
بقلم : منير عامر

في كثير من الأحيان نجد الصوت الداخلي في أعماقنا وهو يعلو بلوم الواحد منا لنفسه‏.‏ وفي قليل من الأحيان نملك جدارة مواجهة هذا الصوت فنصدر له الأمر بالتوقف عن لوم النفس‏.‏ وبين الاستماع إلي همسات اللوم التي يفوق ضجيجها أي ضجيج آخر علي الرغم أن أحدا لا يسمعه غيرنا ـ وبين القدرة علي أن نأمر تلك الأصوات بالصمت‏,‏ لابد لنا أن نملك القدرة علي النظر تحت أقدامنا لنعيش اللحظة التي نحياها الآن بإتقان ما لدينا من أعمال‏,‏ ذلك أن الغرق في لون النفس العنيف يفرغنا من طاقة نحتاجها لمواجهة اليوم الذي نحياه‏,‏ وهي طاقة تقدير النفس‏.‏ كان هذا ما تقوله د‏.‏ باتريشيا سيلجرون المحاضرة في الصحة النفسية لمعهد الإدارة التابع لجامعة نيويورك‏,‏ وكنت أستمع اليها مع آخرين‏,‏ متمنيا ـ كما يتمني غيري ـ ألا نقع في دوامات لوم النفس التي تمر علي كل إنسان مهما علا قدره أو صغر‏.‏ تطالب د‏.‏ باتريشيا سيلجرون أي إنسان بأن يتذكر دائما أن لوم النفس حين يزيد علي الحد‏,‏ إنما يجرف الأعماق من النظر إلي ما فعلناه من قبل وأنجزناه‏,‏ وتكون النتيجة هي الغرق في دوامات عدم تقدير النفس‏.‏ أخذت أنصت لهذه السيدة التي قضت قرابة الاثني عشرة سنة في دراسة أسرار تجريف الإنسان منا لثقته بنفسه‏;‏ عندما يقع في دوامة النقد العنيف لذاته‏,‏ وضحكت معها حين سخرت من مصطلح النقد الذاتي الذي اشتهرت به المجتمعات الاشتراكية التي رحلت من عالمنا بسقوط جدار برلين منذ سنوات بعيدة‏,‏ وأوضحت أن النقد الذاتي كان مجرد وسيلة يتم بها عقاب من يرغبون في طرده من جنة الأحزاب الحاكمة في تلك البلاد‏,‏ بينما كان قادة تلك الأحزاب يستمتعون برؤية المغضوب عليهم وهم يقللون من قيمة أنفسهم‏,‏ فيعيش هؤلاء المغضوب عليهم مشاعر القزمية‏,‏ بينما كان قادتهم في نعيم خداع النفس بالثرثرة عن إنجازات وهمية نسبوها إلي أنفسهم‏.‏ وتابعت د‏.‏ باتريشيا الإنسان منا ليس قزما كما قد تفعله به رحلة نقده العنيف لنفسه‏,‏ وليس عملاقا كما قد يتوهم حين يضخم من إنجازاته‏,‏ ولكن الإنسان منا يمشي دائما بطاقات كامنة تحتاج إلي اكتشاف متجدد‏,‏ ولا تكشف لنا تلك الطاقات عن نفسها إلا بتفتيت الأحلام الصعبة إلي محطات صغيرة‏,‏ فقط عليه ألا يفقد قدرة الاقتحام الجسور الصبور لكل المشكلات التي تقابله بعد أن يرتبها فيبدأ بمواجهة الأسهل وصولا إلي الأصعب من بعد ذلك‏.‏ وأضافت ما توصي به أي إنسان محترف للندم علي ما ضاع منه‏,‏ فقالت قد تكون خسارتك لما فقدته جسيمة‏,‏ ولكن الأكثر جسامة هو أن تخسر اللحظة الحالية قد تنجز فيها ما يحقق لك بديلا ناجحا لما فقدته‏.‏ ومن أغرب ما قالته إن التشاؤم الذي نغمر به أنفسنا حين نسبح في نهر لوم النفس‏;‏ يتحول إلي حبال غير مرئية تقيدنا خلف جدار يمنعنا من رؤية ما نتمتع به من صفات تؤهلنا لتحقيق الحياة اللائقة بنا‏.‏ وحين ناقشت ماقالته د‏.‏ باتريشيا سيلجرون مع صديقي الطبيب النفسي الكبير محمد شعلان‏,‏ أضاف إن تقييم الإنسان منا لنفسه يجب أن يتميز بالرحمة والتعاطف‏,‏ لأن الرحمة والتعاطف وسيلتان يشجع بهما الفرد نفسه علي رؤية طاقاته الملهمة في أعماقه‏,‏ أما الغرق في لوم النفس‏,‏ فيصيب الإنسان بعد تكراره للعديد من المرات بالتبلد وإدمان البقاء في سجون الندم المتكرر علي ما فات‏.‏ تري من منا يستطيع أن يوقف مسلسل جلده لنفسه‏,‏ وأن يري كيف يعالج أخطاءه دون تكرارها‏,‏ ولا يتكاسل عن مواجهتها‏,‏ بل بامتلاك القدرة علي تجاوز تلك الأخطاء‏;‏ وصولا إلي إنجازات تغير من واقعه؟ السؤال معلق أمامنا جميعا‏,‏ ينتظر الإجابة دون بكاء علي ما ضاع من أحلام‏,‏ ودون توهم حدوث معجزات تنجز ما يحلم به أي منا سوي معجزة إتقان مافي يده الآن من عمل‏. عن جريدة الأهرام القاهرية . العدد 44030 ‏السنة 131 الأثنين 25 يونيو 2007 ‏10 من جمادى الاخرة 1428 هـ

قرأت المقال السابق من نصف ساعة و بالصدفة كنت بأفكر أكتب عن حاجة شبيهة جدا أو أدق إنى أقول إنها متعلقة بنفس الموضوع بصورة أخرى . عن اللى بأسميه مع صديقة - الصراصير اللى فى دماغنا - الأفكار الكثيرة المتعلقة بأشياء كثيرة متشابكة متباعدة أو متقاربة مرتبطة ببعض أو ليس لها علاقة ببعض إطلاقا متشابهة أو متضادة أحيانا . صرصار صغير جدا من القبيلة المحتلة الفراغ فى جمجمتنا مابين الأذنين وخلف العينين هو اللى تكلم عنه منير عامر فى المقال . النهاردة بالذات و أنا راجعة للبيت من اليوم الطويييييييييل اللى اسمه يوم عمل تمنيت لأول مرة فى حياتى أتعاطى منوم بس عشان يسكتوا -ولو إنى مش متاكدة ده ها يؤثر عليهم ولا لأ- مش نتيجة إن عندى أرق لا سمح الله. أنا بأنام مقتولة من الإرهاق . إنما المشكلة إنى بأنام لكن الصراصير لأ و بالتالى أنا أنام إنما طول الليل بطريقة ما بأفكر فى كذا و كذا....................وكذا و هأعمل بكرة إيه فى كذا و هأكتب شئ معين بطريقة إيه عشان يحصل كذا و مايحصلش كذا وهأصمم شئ معين بشكل كده و لا كده و هألحق أخلص فى ميعادى و لا لأ و اليوم هايكفى ده وده وده و لا هاتحصل حاجة تقلب المخطط كله ؟ وتكون النتيجة إنى أصحى الصبح مرهقة أكتر من الإرهاق اللى نمت بيه بالليل !!! نفسى أعرف طريقة يسكتوا كلهم بيها

سعاد أخت القمر

أنا سعاد أخت القمر
بين العباد حسنى انتشر
...
طولي شبر ووجهي بدر
صوتي سحر كلي بشر

دى كانت أغنية إتكتبت مخصوص للمرحومة سعاد حسنى وهى طفلة بس أنا قررت أسبغها كمان على سعاد ماسى بعد حفلتها هنا فى إسكندرية يوم 19 اللى فات .الفرق الوحيد بين سعاد اللى فى الأغنية و سعاد اللى شفتها إن سعاد ماسى أطول من الشبر ده شويتين .البوست اللى فات كان أول رد فعل للحفلة لأن دى أغنيتى المفضلة لسعاد حتى لو مش هى أحسن أغانيها لكن هي فرحتنى جدا إنها غنتها تانى أغنية فى الحفل وعادت و زادت فيها وأنا طايرة من البهجة والفرح . سعاد كانت منورة الشاطبى بحالها بصوتها اللى فيه كل حاجة بمعنى كل حاجة. و طاقتها اللى ما نضبتش طول ساعتين الحفلة و بسمتها الرائعة من غير أى مكياج و البنطلون و البلوزة الكتان الأبيض اللى نوروا الحفلة زيادة . ده غير أخوها القمر كان طالع هلال رائع فى سماء صافية و متمركز بالضبط فوق المسرح المكشوف فى المكتبة . وريحة البحر من الميناء الشرقى نقلها لنا نسيم خفيف لطيف من غير رطوبة ساعد إن الجو العام للحفلة يبقى أكثر من خيالي. الناس كانت أكتر من الكراسى المرصوصة وأنا شخصيا كنت محظوظة إنى فى الصف الرابع أو الخامس قدامها تماما . الأعمار و الخلفيات واضح إنها متباينة جدا مابين هواة موسيقى على قد حالهم زى حالتى و هواة فاهمة موسيقى بجد و فرانكوفونيين مصريين وأجانب متحدثين بالإنجليزية واضح انهم مقيمين فى إسكندرية حاليا و عيال فرافير جايين تحضر حفلة روك و رجال و سيدات فى اعمار الخمسينات و ما فوق و حتى شباب-دول بقى كانوا فى الصف اللى قدامى على طول- واضح من رد فعلهم طول الحفلة إنهم لا سمعوا عنها ولا بيحبوا نوعية موسيقاتها ولا حاجة خالص .بس أعتقد إن الأغلبية إعجابهم الشديد بسعاد كان السبب الأساسى إنهم حضروا الحفلة . المهم إنها حركت حتى الحجارة اللى كانت قاعدة قدامى و فى اخر الحفلة حتى دول انفعلوا مع الأداء و الموسيقى و الجو العام. وكان عندى إستعداد الحفلة تمتد 7 ساعات مش 2 بس ومش مهم الشغل تانى يوم .كانت ليلة رائعة بجد نفسى تتكرر تانى وتالت و عاشر و تيجى عشان نسمع ونشوف نموذج غير منتجات أخصائيين التجميل اللى منتشرة اليومين دول وبيقولوا عليهم فنانات . دا الواحد كان نسى يعنى إيه فنان. ربنا يحمى سعاد ماسى ّ

مشمشة : فاتك كتييييييير

و يلعن القلب اللى يحبك ......................

حبيبتى يا سعاد :)

Paris , again

I've found my favorite song about Paris , finally , after almost 15 years of last listining to it , and in an all new atmosphere. I loved the original very much, Marc Lavoine is special, but this version is also wonderful with my latest discovery Souad Massi. magnifique


My little treasure's URL : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vbDkcAQ8Afo

A question

I was just watching a clip of a song, a french song that i've listened to for the last time a looooooong time ago and, uh... i don't know, a strange question hit me, why do we think and believe that we will be happy if the things we wish to happen, happen !? what guarantees this? and what if this fails to make us happy? or even make us miserable? what will happen to the entity, the thing that we once thought would make us happy? will we hate it or what? is it better to leave it a good dream than a bad reality? or do we better face our fears and be somehow brave ?
a what if question that came out of the blue at 2 A.M. !!!

Old and wise , Alan Parsons Project

Well , i may have put an extract of this song's lyrics before , but when i listened to it again today i thought it must be shared .



I was introduced to it in a special circumstances, and i still remember exactly how i felt then. I used its lyrics here before in a totally different situation, and now... i don't know why exactly i'm putting it .

When I'm gone!

Apart from the specific details , when i read this it just occurred to me that this is what i would like to be said about me when i'm ... well , gone :)

"John Wayne was probably the biggest star in the world, yet he retained the qualities of a small boy. He had the enthusiasm for life that would make a high school football star envious. And through it all, Duke never changed. As a man he was exactly the boy he started out. And as a friend ... well, you just wouldn't want a better one. In his lifetime, Duke stamped Amercia across the face of the motion picture industry. Few other men, living or dead, have ever portrayed the fine, decent, and generous American qualities as Duke did. He portrayed on screen the values he lived off screen. Gentle - so much so, it would have surprised his critics. Loyal - once your friend, always your friend. Courageous - if you doubt it, remember his fight against cancer, or the way he faced heart surgery. And decent. Above all, Duke was a decent man. He was also far from perfect. He made his mistakes as I have made mine and you have made yours. All in all, I would say they were unintentional. Mistakes of the heart, I would say. Let me say this about the John Wayne I knew. He was an original. He was the statue of his times. All in all, I think it was the man's integrity that speaks most of him. His principles never varied. Nor did his ideals. Nor did his faith in mankind."
James Stewart about his friend John Wayne.
Source , IMDB